ARE YOU THERE?
Where are you God…Where are You hiding?
Don’t you see that I am dying?
My path is dark; All hope has faded
For change and answers I have waited.
I’ve prayed until no words are left
I’ve cried for help… and yet.
Silence only greets my heart
Waves of pain I wish You’d part.
My outstretched hands feel empty air
This, no longer can I bear!
I’m crushed beneath the weight of pain
My thinking says I’m less than sane.
My faith is mocked, my prayers; contempt
When will Your heart to me be bent?
I long for help, to know You’re near
To see mountains fall and paths come clear.
Are You real?
Do You care?
Although You seem so far away
And my heart’s filled with clouds of gray
Yet I will praise and worship thee
For good will come just wait and see.
To Your promise I will cling
That You will come and give me wings.
You have not failed, seem though it may
A bigger picture is at bay.
Refiner’s fire, cleanse me pure
Renew my hope, make each step sure.
For even yet, Your grace will shine
For purpose comes from every trial.
Change me, mold me, new and fresh
More like You; and “me,” much less.
I hope in You and You alone
For in my weakness You are strong.
I won’t give up!
I won’t despair!
Great good will come from all I bear.
For You will come to cleanse and change
To bring good purpose in all things
Renewing hope on eagle’s wings.
By Rhonda Shelford Jansen
I’ve had a hard month; I might even go so far as to say a hard season. It has been a season where all facets of my life have been affected, health, children, career, autos, finances, pets, relationships, you name it and my family has struggled with it. It seems like every time the preverbal light at the end of the tunnel is within sight a mighty black cloud blocks the light and a powerful wind comes roaring up that tunnel and knocks us facedown. Leaving us looking straight into the gritty, darkness of adversity. Surviving each on slot of adversity has been challenging and to stay positive and strong has been an undeniably difficult task. I will admit that I have felt so overwhelmed and drained of energy that at times praying felt like a chore and my heart was so discouraged I didn’t know what to pray.
Some will say I’m dancing with depression. Maybe they’re right, but I feel most like a human struggling with life and at times life is tough. It’s normal to be down in hard times, it’s normal to feel pain and to struggle with the purpose being served or what lesson is being learned in the midst of pain and struggling. The truth is sometimes a difficult situation comes along and we may never know why or what greater good is served, but when it’s over we do know that we survived; we are still standing in the end.
We are still standing, but not alone, we are standing with the friends and family members who prayed for us when we could not. We are standing next to the friends who shared a glass of wine or cup of coffee and listened to our pain. We are standing next to and because of the caring people in our lives who gave small acts of thoughtfulness and kindness like a card, chocolate, a hug, an encouraging word, a joke or funny story, all having the power of encouragement embedded within.
So, even though this season of difficulty is still upon my family and I have no idea what purpose in God’s bigger plan it serves. What I do know is that I have some wonderful friends and family members who love me and are willing to support me with prayer, kind and thoughtful acts, and a listening ear. I am blessed. It is in remembering the significance of my loved ones and what a gift they are in my life that I find the energy and hope in moving forward through each difficult situation.
Every struggle is a little easier when we have the support of just a few good friends or family members. I pray for you the blessing of a few true and encouraging friends and family members. May your life be blessed with encouraging people.
Debora Shelford Hobbs